Yours

Those lovely gazes aren’t for you to gaze back at,
Those hands aren’t yours to hold tightly at night,
Those sweaters he owns aren’t for you to wear when you’re cold,
Those warm embraces aren’t yours to seek for,
And those soft lips aren’t yours to kiss when the fireworks starts singing;
He’s not yours, and he will never be; yet every night you wish he was, so that you can do all those things with him.

He’s not yours, but there is someone who is; someone who seeks to hold you every night, someone who would gaze at you rather than the beautiful sunsets, who would give you their sweaters when you’re cold, who would give you those warm embraces you were seeking for all these years, and those soft lips are yours to kiss before, during, and after the fireworks have sung.

Daydream

I kept gazing, gazing at the incomplete moon in the evening sky, making me feel, that maybe, just maybe that we’re staring at the same moon. The thought of you gazing at the moon with me makes me feel safe and cozy, like we’re connected in some way.

“What are you like? What are your favourite songs?…What are your fears?”I thought to myself, as if asking the moon for an answer, but getting no answer in return, only the sound of silent waves crashing at the shores drenching my toes that I buried in the sand.

I sighed, “I’ll wait for you” I whispered to the wind, blowing my hair sideways. I got up from my feet and started walking, dreaming, dreaming about when I’ll intertwine my hand in yours.

Melancholy

A beautiful girl at the edge of the room

Silent and isolated, there she blooms

Always sketching and looking down

Her loneliness suffocates her, I can see her drown.

Like a beautiful white dove,

Trapped in a cage who only seeks for love.

Love

Let me paint you like the beautiful sky

and visit your flower shop just to say hi,

For I have fallen deep in your eyes

where I can gaze at it till the sunrise.

Daydreams.

I’m left alone with my silent thoughts

My head is sprouting flowers like pots

Catching butterflies in my mind

In my own world where I left mankind.

Thoughts and Melodies

A sweet piano playing in the background

Plunging me deep into my thoughts with its beautiful sound,

The lovely melodies it composes makes my heart vulnerable,

Covering me like a blanket to soothe me and tell my memories that I find memorable.

As I began to open up I realise my mistakes and scars that I’ve left to people,

Oh how sorry I am that I did this to you but my apology will not reach you

Because the scars that I left will always be with you.

Flashbacks starts to unravel,

A beautiful rose on a field under the shining moon

Waiting for someone to pick me up soon

But little did you know that this rose had sharp thorns

Now you’re bleeding and I’m finding my next victim,

I just want to love someone where I don’t hurt them.

I truly am sorry but it’s too late to say it,

And now my inner demons won’t let me go,

Stuck in my room forced to feel guilty until I can’t forgive myself,

Because your sky that I visited will never have a rainbow,

Just dark clouds and rain,

Isn’t it strange that I love this pain?

From now on I will learn from my mistakes that I made from the past

And treat someone good in the future so our relationship will last,

Forever.

I was scared of the hardships of being with someone,

but if you’re worth it then I wouldn’t mind it,

Because these hardships will make our bonds stronger so we’ll grasp ourselves tightly and never let go

So we won’t become hollow.

I promise to make you laugh when you’re down,

To listen to you when you’re down

I will do it all for you because I love you,

And I want to see you in that wedding gown,

Unless you’re a guy,

Which I don’t mind.

As the piano plays its last note

It pulls me back from my deep thoughts

With the knowledge that I brought with me from my thoughts.

Now I’m back in reality,

Please excuse me while I go make myself some black tea.